I am soooo glad that school is out.  This break is well deserved!  It's great just to relax.  Cept we have so many damn projects and stuff.... okay, like one or two, but still!!!! haha.  Last night was really fun.  Lizzie picked me up at 1 and we went shopping.  We got to her house and chilled.  We watched Lion King and ate cookies.  Then Richard came over and we went to Tyra's party.  It was a nice party but there was some stuff going on like all the confusion with Johnathan's band playing, and the money, and the stuff with Cait.  Well, anyway.  We got bored and left at like 9:30 or so.  We went for a joy ride in Cait's sin wagon aka black betty.  Then Cait and I yelled at Lizzie and Richard because we wanted to listen to blasting Led Zepplin and they were like making out in the back seat.  So we were like damnit, if you can make out in the back seat, we can listen to whatever the hell we want! Haha. Then Liz's dad came and picked us up. ( Cait went to Jayes. ) We went back to Lizzie's house (the three of us) and had our own little party in the pool house.   It was fun.  BTW Liz, the diet coke concotion... good idea!  And shut up Richard because it was good.  Anywhooooo.  So then we hung out for a few hours and Richard left at like 12:15ish.  Lizzie and I went back to her room and like chilled.  We fell asleep talking.  We got up this morning at watched Nightmare before Christmas and ate bagels.  Our daily ritual... bagels... mmmmmm.  Haha!   Okay, so then Dad picked up and we had to go to Shannon's soccer game.  It was almost over by the time we go there.  We stopped at our new house to see the hardwood floors.  They look super nice.  And I like the tile in my bathroom.  My room is going to be so cool.  Um... Shannon's team tied.  Cool.  Um... I just got home like an hour ago.  I'm bored right now and I have a head ache.  I'm just really tired so I might go take a nap.  Anyway.  If anyone wants to hang out over break call me because we're not going anywhere.   So I'm going to be a bum.  Later.

Okay, so I screwed up.  I blew off studying all weekend.  Grrrrreat.  now I'm going to have to pay for it tomorrow when I have to BS why my english questions aren't in, and why I failed my Chem test.  Whoopie, just the day I'm looking for.  Oh, on top of a lovely morning practice.  Kieth's going to probably kill us since only 11 people went to morning practice on Friday.  Anyways... let's not talk about tomorrow.  Ahh.... crap, that's all I can think of.... how shitty it will be.  I'm sooooo not looking forward to this.

Music: The Starting Line - "Forever in a Day"

Tuesday's here and I'll be waking up 
to another day filled with life's mistakes, 
And the ones that lingered from the day before. 
All the blanks I've drawn, 
All the times I've shared, 
All the times that I've been unprepared. 
All the songs I've sang that I just can't explain. 

Did you know that I once said 
That I can't change the road that I was led, 
And can't find better friends. 
Is it worth the pain? 
Is it worth the wait? 
As I attempt to set my record straight, 
I'll open up the drapes 
Cause I'll appreciate the most beautiful day. 

Afternoon should be coming soon, 
As dim light leaves, the sun shines over me, 
It feels like my shadows run away. 
Evening falls down on top of me, 
And the minutes creep by constantly. 
Then I look back and start the day again. 

Am I sorry, am I lost, 
Have I forgot where I'm coming from 
Or have I just begun? 
Different days and different ways 
Always seem to end up the same, 
It's too routine for me. 
Did you know that I once said 
That I cant change the road that I was led. 
Forever more and lived forever in a day.

I haven't written in a long while.  Hmmm, what to say?  Well, Bailey and I are chill, as of now.  But whatever, I can't put too much faith into that friendship anymore, I never know if she really cares anymore, doubtful.  We won our waterpolo game on Thursday, 3-2.  It was a kick ass game! I played three quarters.  I blocked like 4, let 2 impossible shots in, and I even blocked a 4-meter shot in the shallow end.  It was so exciting.  Then I went to Katie's Christmas play.  It was super cute.  Then Tasha and I hung out.  I didn't get home until 10.  Then I ate dinner and worked on the research paper for 2 whole hours.  CRAZY!  And then it was too late to study for Chemistry, so I was like thoroughly screwed for the test.  Anyway, I went to bed and slept through morning practice.  Remember folks, I get an average of 5 hours of sleep a night on top of 13 hours of waterpolo a week.  I am one tired cookie.  Anywho... so when I got to school, turns out only 11 people went to practice, that's less then 1/2 of both teams combined.  Haha.  Everyone was so exhausted from our game.  So then come 6 period I'm feelin pretty shitty about the test.  So I talked to Dr.P and she said I could take the test on Monday with Bliss.  So Bliss and I sat and talked for the whole 45 minutes.  It was awesome!  She and I have a whole lot in common, like same underlying morals.  Who knew that the girl who used play little league softball with Meli and I would turn out to be someone I was having full on conversations with during 6 period.  Not me, I can tell you that! 

Okay so Friday night was the dance.  I had fun for sure.  It was so cold though, about 45 degrees.  People in Maine or what not may be like, that's not cold, but trust me... it is.  Everyone was crowding the heater vents.  So we picked up Theo at about 7:45.  We took like 2 pictures and left.  We got there right at 8 and I felt so akward, there were like all freshman there and 2 seniors.  It was crazy.  We didn't dance too much, but it was pretty fun.  I get crazy at dances, like I get this second wind almost.  And like I think I probably scared Theo.  Not to mention T***.  She was so drunk!  Omg, but it was funny.  She kept telling me that she was going to have to get a "magic" water bottle.  She tried convincing Ryan that she and I were sisters.  She also professed her love for me, and kissed Amelia.  She kept going "whooohoo Erinn, it's a partttttaaaaay" and like grabbin my hand onto the dance floor.  Omg, I was dying.  I kept saying, "you're so going to regret this tomorrow" and Ryan goes "T***, I like this one, she's a good friend, she cares about you, and watches out for you." I was like, aww, that's sweet.  I do care... after all, she's my "sister".  HAHA.  Everyone looked soooo pretty and omg, Jo and Colin... omg, I won't say anything, but omg.... cuties!  haha!  Jo, we already went over this earlier, hottie.   Hmmmm okay... so earlier that day Cait goes " I love this day, its the one day that all the popular girls look like shit and I can laugh at them for being ugly "... everyone had gotten mystic tanning and it looked horrible on a ton of girls ahahahahahaha.  okay.  Well, this is getting super long.  Um... ok... so we didn't go to any after parties, he went home, his uncle was in the hospital.   I went home and like went to sleep.  Woke up today, went to piano lessons, studied chemistry, talked to Tai, became an internet junkie for like 2 hours, um... oh and babysitted my 3 God-sisters..... have you ever wanted to know what hell on earth feels like? Spend some time with them.... ahhh!  just kidding around, but I got paid well, so thats okay.  Okay, well I'm going to go.  Tai and I might go out to the movies tomorrow.  Whoohoo.  Aite, later peoples.  Yeah... all of you who read this.

Music:  Blink182's new CD.... SO GOOD!!!

This has been one hell of a week.

Tuesday night we won our first waterpolo game.  12-3.

Wednesday night, I ran away from home for a few hours.  There was fighting at home and I just needed to leave.  So I left.  And I ran... until I couldn't anymore. 

Thursday night we won our 2nd waterpolo game.  18-1.

Today I stayed home from school sick.  And tonight, about an hour ago, Grandma died.  It's starting to hit me now.  It's the second time this week that I've seen my mom and sisters cry.  This is really hard on me.  I know she and I weren't that close, but it is still so hard.  She was my last grandparent left.

Mom's having eye surgery and might have to cancel, to go up to Oregon for things regarding Grandma.  She's been having a hard time with her eyes and she needs the surgery.  Well, I have to go. 

This week has definitly had its shares of ups and downs.

Later.